Psychobabblicious

I took the love test (twice because I was either/or on some of the choices and this is the analysis I wound up with for each)…
1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.
3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.
4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.
5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with.
6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.
7. You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your freedom.
8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.
[Accurate, with somewhat of an exception to #6 and #7. I feel strongly about the sanctity of marriage, but I don't give two shits about how society feels about it. I agree with the assumption that some freedoms are lost, but I'm not in fear of that. Nor do I think it's an entirely negative thing as you actually gain something as well]

2nd Time- these were the differences:
1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.
6. You can't resist desire and lust; most probably you'll commit adultery.
7. You are quite pessimistic, you don't think happy marriages exist anymore nowadays.
[I am in complete agreement with #1, and in vehement disagreement with the rest.]

In other words, I'm all over the map and ever-changing. :)

Edited: October 11th, 2002

Pssst…

I'm journaling over here now :)

Edited: August 9th, 2002

The Anna Nicole Show

First things first, I haven't seen it. I want to.
I like her… *shrugs* always have-reguardless of “popular opinion.”

From Tremble…
“Dear Producers of The Anna Nicole Show,
I am going to report you to the ASPCA for the way you treat Miss Anna Nicole Smith on camera.
The Anna Nicole Show is the first reality program I've seen on television where you can actually feel the producers nudging and winking at you. The ironic distance from the subject is so enormous, I could swear there were a few moments where the cameras were actually shaking from smirking laughter.
I suspect, if you turn the volume up extremely loud on your television set, you'll pick up extra bits of dialogue from the camera and lighting people. You'll catch low whispers of “oh jesus” and “holy shit you're so stupid, Anna” and “I can't believe we're going to get away with this” as Anna simulates awkward intercourse on a stranger's bed, or slurs her nonsensical and non-linear statements through a lithium-assisted southern drool.
Wow, producers of The Anna Nicole Show. Thanks for (unintentionally, I imagine) doing the impossible – making me feel terribly sorry for someone with one hundred million dollars and gigantic breasts. ”

:(

Edited: August 7th, 2002

Sparkle Girl

“Be more like a fire than a firefly,
`cause that's the best way to be happy” -Kay Hanley

Heh, that quote makes me giggle because of its sappiness factor, but dammit, it's true. I don't want to be one of those people who lived without really living, who let their lives pass them by and have nothing to show for it… no fond memories, no scars, no arrest record *snicker* ok I'm kidding about THAT one! ;)
I spend an awful lot of time by myself, but for the most part, I don't mind- I enjoy my own company, I like myself. Sometimes, still, I need to get out of the house, and yes, sometimes it is against my will ;)
I have been going out, meeting people, having cocktails, socializing (but surprisingly not picking up strangers for sex! Recovery is coming along, eh?). I've gotten my fix and now I'm ready to kick back into isolation mode (Thursdays are an exception- I can't bear to miss Rastabilly Rebels and their happy hour cavalcade of musical perversion @ The Melody Inn, heh). Or at least, that's where my head is at today… Tomorrow? Who knows?! I am a beautiful mess!

Edited: August 6th, 2002

ph33r!!111!!!!

Friday- an unexpected late night phone call, Saturday- an unexpected invitation, Sunday- another unexpected request, This morning- breakfast… So many pleasant surprises!
I'm afraid… afraid to say too much about my wonderful weekend, lest I jinx something. No questions asked, no assumptions made, no worries, no defining… I'll just leave it at wonderful; that's a fair assessment.

*Oh, news: I am buying a new domain and will likely change my lj username (or possibly switch to another journaling service) when the layout is up over there. I'll keep you updated on the situation in case you'd like to keep reading. I also hope to change the style and content of my entries into something more “personal”… thought provoking and less frivolous. I post that sort of thing elsewhere right now; I think it's time to start doing it here. =)

Edited: August 5th, 2002

Cambois

Hey, us goils need some eyecandy too! He's definitely got my attention! Lawdy!!!

Edited: August 2nd, 2002

My, My, My

I have been quite the social butterfly lately *snort* hitting the Patio, Alley Cat and Melody Inn several times apiece in the past few weeks! Tonite I'm catching the Rastabilly Rebel's happy hour gig @ The Melody *cough* stalker *cough*, then traipsing over to Battle Of The Bands at The Vogue. I don't LIKE going out, what am I DOING?! ;)
I am thankful the weekend isn't too far away, so I can catch up on sleep! I'm taking my 3RD trip to the license branch for a test Saturday *scowl* Why am I even updating with the frivolous tripe?! Ah, yes, because there ain't jack goin' on at thee office!

Daily bitches: I have on too much makeup. It's a sauna outside. I've had too much caffeine and can't calm down. It's a bad hair day. And, of course, I have nothing to wear. Oh the humanity!
K. Carry on. =)
[re-obsessing]

Edited: August 1st, 2002

Outside feels a lot like my shower, only not nearly as relaxing or comforting. Inside feels like my freezer, only there's no yummy treats to be had here.

I had a blast last night, rather unexpectedly. A fellow cammer invited me over to her new place. I had forgotten what it feels like to have “friends” and to “hang out” because I've become so accustomed to being alone, and actually enjoy my own company a lot. We sipped some wine and got goofy on cam… good times! I stayed up too late so I'm pretty sluggish, but fuck it, it was fun. I really look forward to doing it again, and that is a pleasant surprise!

On the way to work, I noticed Paul Westerburg is playing next door to my apt. I always liked him/his music… thought he was sexy in an offbeat sort of way… heard good things about his recent shows… so, I'm thinking of going to see him myself. Hrm, I'm living tight on this paycheck, but the next 2 are play money because there are no bills due! Woo-effing-hoo!

Soooo, ANYway… Plug, plugged, plugging.

Edited: July 30th, 2002

What the hell? Why the hell?

This site is odd, lame, cute, amusing and yet not really that funny… all at once. Yay, a plethora o' contradictions- just like me!

Edited: July 29th, 2002

revenge of the red tape

i have again witnessed the evils of the license branch, and i can attest to the fact that they are ever increasing. i called them up just to make sure i had all the necessary documents and was told to bring proof of: identity (check- i already have a state id), social security (check- my soc is ON my state id, W-2, my paystubs, my insurance card, my student loan paperwork, and i have a copy of my credit report), birth (check- my birth certificate), residency (check- phone, electric & cable bills, bank statements, paystub blah blah blah). i skimmed their website one last time to be certain i hadn't forgotten anything… it was all good, i had more than enough documentation to attain the required point totals listed.
upon arrival, i noiced there were many people waiting outside (smokers, i assumed). inside the waiting area was more than full and many were standing to the sides and back of the room as well. fine. i'll wait. i have no choice, really. i cannot take off anymore time from work to do this. there were 8 terminals, and only three of them occupied by workers while 3 other employees chatted it up about their weekend picnic plans off to the side, ignoring the long line and vacant computers they SHOULD have been utilizing. no wonder things were moving so slowly. an hour and a half later i reach the information desk only to be told they do not go by a points system anymore, and i do not have the required documents- despite being advised by BOTH phone and website on what to bring. it seems the state id card THEY issued cannot be used as one of the “proofs” anymore because of anti-terrorist measures put into effect “just a few days ago”. why was the public not informed of this?! there were no mailers sent out, no signs posted, no radio ads, no tv commercials. AND why was i given incorrect information by one of their employees AS WELL AS by their website?! And, most importantly, why was i treated so rudely and why couldn't the spawn of satan(tm) behind the counter tell me anything about when/where/how to obtain the paperwork she was demanding from me?!
several calls later to several offices in the government section of the phonebook, i had my answer. so… the next “business day” i took more time off work and trucked to yet another office. this office was much more efficient. total time there? 20 mins! twenty minutes despite taking a number and waiting in an already full room. the clerk was courteous and helpful. she seemed to be in a GOOD MOOD! *gasp*
back to the license branch, i went. i'll be damned if i was going to face the same spawn of satan(tm) again, so i chose another location. at this location, when i offered the newly obtained document, i was told they didn't need it. *bitter cynical ironic laughter* in fact, they only requested to see my id and a utility bill!
how much time, money, gas, and effort was wasted because this agency can't get their shit together?! ah, but to top it off, the computers were down statewide- indefinitely- first thing on a monday morning. they said i was welcomed to wait. *smirk* yes, of course! oh, and, i failed the test…. BY ONE QUESTION.

Edited: July 23rd, 2002

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