Pssst…
I'm journaling over here now :)
Edited: August 9th, 2002
First things first, I haven't seen it. I want to.
I like her… *shrugs* always have-reguardless of “popular opinion.”
From Tremble…
“Dear Producers of The Anna Nicole Show,
I am going to report you to the ASPCA for the way you treat Miss Anna Nicole Smith on camera.
The Anna Nicole Show is the first reality program I've seen on television where you can actually feel the producers nudging and winking at you. The ironic distance from the subject is so enormous, I could swear there were a few moments where the cameras were actually shaking from smirking laughter.
I suspect, if you turn the volume up extremely loud on your television set, you'll pick up extra bits of dialogue from the camera and lighting people. You'll catch low whispers of “oh jesus” and “holy shit you're so stupid, Anna” and “I can't believe we're going to get away with this” as Anna simulates awkward intercourse on a stranger's bed, or slurs her nonsensical and non-linear statements through a lithium-assisted southern drool.
Wow, producers of The Anna Nicole Show. Thanks for (unintentionally, I imagine) doing the impossible – making me feel terribly sorry for someone with one hundred million dollars and gigantic breasts. ”
:(
Edited: August 7th, 2002
“Be more like a fire than a firefly,
`cause that's the best way to be happy” -Kay Hanley
Heh, that quote makes me giggle because of its sappiness factor, but dammit, it's true. I don't want to be one of those people who lived without really living, who let their lives pass them by and have nothing to show for it… no fond memories, no scars, no arrest record *snicker* ok I'm kidding about THAT one! ;)
I spend an awful lot of time by myself, but for the most part, I don't mind- I enjoy my own company, I like myself. Sometimes, still, I need to get out of the house, and yes, sometimes it is against my will ;)
I have been going out, meeting people, having cocktails, socializing (but surprisingly not picking up strangers for sex! Recovery is coming along, eh?). I've gotten my fix and now I'm ready to kick back into isolation mode (Thursdays are an exception- I can't bear to miss Rastabilly Rebels and their happy hour cavalcade of musical perversion @ The Melody Inn, heh). Or at least, that's where my head is at today… Tomorrow? Who knows?! I am a beautiful mess!
Edited: August 6th, 2002
Friday- an unexpected late night phone call, Saturday- an unexpected invitation, Sunday- another unexpected request, This morning- breakfast… So many pleasant surprises!
I'm afraid… afraid to say too much about my wonderful weekend, lest I jinx something. No questions asked, no assumptions made, no worries, no defining… I'll just leave it at wonderful; that's a fair assessment.
*Oh, news: I am buying a new domain and will likely change my lj username (or possibly switch to another journaling service) when the layout is up over there. I'll keep you updated on the situation in case you'd like to keep reading. I also hope to change the style and content of my entries into something more “personal”… thought provoking and less frivolous. I post that sort of thing elsewhere right now; I think it's time to start doing it here. =)
Edited: August 5th, 2002
I have been quite the social butterfly lately *snort* hitting the Patio, Alley Cat and Melody Inn several times apiece in the past few weeks! Tonite I'm catching the Rastabilly Rebel's happy hour gig @ The Melody *cough* stalker *cough*, then traipsing over to Battle Of The Bands at The Vogue. I don't LIKE going out, what am I DOING?! ;)
I am thankful the weekend isn't too far away, so I can catch up on sleep! I'm taking my 3RD trip to the license branch for a test Saturday *scowl* Why am I even updating with the frivolous tripe?! Ah, yes, because there ain't jack goin' on at thee office!
Daily bitches: I have on too much makeup. It's a sauna outside. I've had too much caffeine and can't calm down. It's a bad hair day. And, of course, I have nothing to wear. Oh the humanity!
K. Carry on. =)
[re-obsessing]
Edited: August 1st, 2002