I am opening a members site. Before you groan and call me a sellout or another gold-digging camwhore, please take a moment to read my thoughts on the subject…
I've been camming for almost four years. Sometimes you get burnt out, but you don't really want to leave the scene – ultimately, you love it and know you'd miss it. So, instead, you branch out, you try something new. (In fact, I actually started out as a blogger, then progressed to adding a webcam.) I've always wanted to offer more interaction and more content, but on my budget, I can't do it alone. That wish has come true thanks to the network of sites I have joined. The nominal membership fee allows me to provide more to you by covering my operating costs. It is more reasonable than most adult websites, and you'll get more than just me :) (I had free hosting, but I was raping my friends bandwidth at 40gig a month and hogging space with avi files and mp3s. I felt bad that I couldn't offer him anything in return, especially when I hear he's strapped right now.)
I still consider camming a hobby for me because… My goal isn't to live off of running a website. I'm employed full time. I pay my bills. I can [usually] take care of myself. In the event of an emergency though, well, I'd really be fucked- I can't pretend that doesn't worry me.
I've been living hand to mouth, paycheck to paycheck for a long time now. A lot of people are, I know. (I retain my current job because, honestly, I need the medical insurance. I'm sort of locked into that.) For the most part, I am okay with my circumstances, but I also realize it doesn't have to be that way. I don't feel comfortable asking for tips and gifts, consequently, I rarely get them (I understand that the economy and the fact that the cam community is oversaturated are probably also contributing factors). I can't tell you how nice it would be to have my time and effort produce a little bit of spending cash here and there. In truth, that money ends up going back into the site in the form of lingerie/costumes, props, lighting, software, and computer equipment anyway. It is like an investment… one from which I happen to get a great deal of enjoyment.
My reasons for camming haven't changed. You'll still get something for nothing. I will continue to blog, tag and update my webcam as I have previously. I've met some wonderful friends that way.
Camming is still a fascinating social and psychological learning experience for me. I still feel it makes me see myself more objectively, as well as spices up my sex life. My philosophy on camming hasn't changed either. I have too strong of a conscience to scam people, and I genuinely want to bring a smile to people's faces. The bottom line is that it would mean a lot to me to have a mutually gratifying exchange between me and my viewers and this is the best avenue. Most of the changes, if not all of them, will be positive… (extensive picture galleries, hot videos, weekly chats, DLS merchandise, and for the very first time- private shows… just to name a few). I am excited about this. I hope you are too. But, remember, I am my staunchest critic. To the others I say: I don't demand you be supportive of my decision and I am truly sorry if you don't agree with it. I can only do so much to please you and yet still be happy myself.
I am defintely motivated. I've got someone wrapping up the php end of things and making banners for me. Then, I will tweak my design, upload all of my pictures and videos, and begin accepting sign ups. If I am on your portal, look for me to notify you of the image url changes soon. It may take a few days, but we're working on it. Maybe I'll see you when I get there :)
Edited: October 13th, 2005
