Big Day Tomorrow

Tomorrow is the big day- my mother’s super scary surgery… the one where they take all of her guts out, graft a ureter tube out of tissue from her intestine, then put everything back in.
The surgeon said they’ve never really done anything like this before and that no, there is no artificial material they could use instead. I’ve been lead to believe the main worry is the high risk for infection. Makes sense after any surgery, really. I’ll go out on a limb here and say it’s very likely that she will indeed have said complications since she has had them with every procedure thus far. I think they’ve had her on every antibiotic known to man by now. (Then there’s the multitude of pain pills… )
I know she’s freaked out, despite her joking that they’d better count all their sponges and instruments before they sew her up. Yuck, I’m not down with the mental picture I am getting on that. :( Dammit, I wish I could have talked her out of this, but I can understand her not wanting to live the rest of her life with tubes and bags hanging out of her. That doesn’t make me any less afraid though. If something terrible happens, you’ll hear about it. And then I will probably disappear for a while.
It sure would help to be an optimist these days.

Originally published at TousledElegance.net. You can comment here or there.

Edited: February 28th, 2007

Not My Best Friend

You already knew I was a rare and unusual woman, right? ;) Let’s further confirm that with this… I am one of the few women that doesn’t like diamonds. I don’t think they are beautiful. I think they are cold, plain and almost impersonal. Colour me odd, yes.
In fact, I wear very little jewelry, save the hoops in my ear and small nose stud, which I rarely switch. That might change, provided I decide to get one of these rings. Like any tattoo I may or may not get in the future, I want something that I’m going to have on every day to mean something to me, not just be for ornamentation.

Originally published at TousledElegance.net. You can comment here or there.

Edited: February 21st, 2007

12-14 Inches

I don’t think this captures what it looks like around here very well, but the plump lil crow makes me happy. What does not, however, is the mini-mountain of grey slush blocking my path to the bus stop. Hmph.
I forsee it: We’ll be digging out until May. *shudders*
Right now, I am almost wistful about the time in Vegas when I got sunburned while sitting in the car for literally less than 3 minutes. I long for the days of bitching about the heat. Give me humidity or give me… something else, just not snow ;)

Originally published at TousledElegance.net. You can comment here or there.

Edited: February 19th, 2007

Uncle Sam Wants YOU [to have babies]

What’s an activist for same sex marriage to do when a court rules marriage is between a man and woman and for the purpose of procreation? Fight back with a new initiative based on that slant….
Want to get married? Fine, but you’ll have to show proof of ability to have children first. Already married? Well, you have three years to have kids or your marriage will be annulled. Improbable? Maybe. Impossible? Not necessarily. Such could be the law in one state if I-957 makes it onto the ballot.
I’d love to be able to safely say something like that would never pass in this country, but then I remember thinking the same thing about The Patriot Act. And, while I admire the gumption behind I-957, I have to admit that it unnerves me that the puritanical neo-con faction could somehow warp this into something ultimately advantageous for their agenda. (Oh, I know, we ALL have one!) Were it not for the way this initiative came about, Focus On The Family would probably come out (ha, no pun intended) and back it. Ack, now there’s an organization that causes both anger and fear to rise up in me! I’ll leave it at that. Best not to get me started on them… Whew! :P

Originally published at TousledElegance.net. You can comment here or there.

Edited: February 14th, 2007

BRB

Upgrading and restructuring…
I finally figured out how to import xml files for some of my old journals/blogs (from as far back as 2002), but it’s going to take some time. Fun, fun!
Right off the bat, a few things are fux0red… (Example: I obviously didn’t start blogging in 1969, I did not post that obsessively on December 31st, nor was there a hiatus in 2003 and 2004). So, yeah, you might see some odd dates, dead links, broken images or other assorted missing shite. Sorry `bout that! I’ll fix what I can, gradually.
Oh, and I think all of the 2006 entries went on a permanent vacation thanks to one frustrated click gone wrong on my part. Oops. :P
More later…

Originally published at TousledElegance.net. You can comment here or there.

Edited: February 7th, 2007

Life Is Running Interference

:( I really didn't want to cancel my streaming show on Camwhores this evening, but I was concerned I might not be able to keep it together enough to “turn it on” and entertain.
I just got word that the team of surgeons performing my Mom's next surgery wants to meet with the family to discuss it- tomorrow. It is a procedure they have never done on anyone before, which makes it risky and critical for us to think it over.
I can't go to the meeting. I can't take off of work. Even if I'd had more notice, I still couldn't afford the missed hours and still be able to pay my rent and utilities. It fucking figures… such is my my luck… I am beating myself up about this because I literally just bought an LCD flat panel monitor last night because I had a little extra money to treat myself. $#@! If only I had known! But how could I?!
So, basically, rather than risk the possibility of bursting into tears tonight live on my webcam, I'm skipping out on this one. People come to the site to chill out and forget their problems. I don't need to bring mine there. Sorry and stuff.

Edited: February 1st, 2007