*stammers*
I've been staring at the blinking cursor for a while. I am still flabbergasted and I can't find the words to explain. Start at the beginning. A very good place to start. My Space. Again. It's evil. It's annoying. It makes me feel like a stalker. But, I can't stop logging in and browsing around. I had an odd message waiting for me today. The subject was: “You've Sure Changed The Past 10 Years.” (Like an assload of us, I was a total outcast in high school and taunted constantly. I am the cliche ugly duckling though. I finally got cute in my twenties.) I expected it to be yet another prick from back in the day telling me something crappy along the lines of 'boy I sure was ugly and weird then, but now I'm hot; let's hook up.' Strangely, the contents of this one simply read, “Do you recognize me at all?” Ok, intriguing. The guy in the user icon is attractive. Looks familiar. I defintely know him. Wonder if he has any more photos? Maybe I can guess who he is from them. *click* As I wait for the page to load, I suddenly remember his name. There are two reasons why. 1) He sat behind me in 10th grade summer school English Lit. He was one of the in crowd and devastatingly gorgeous. [Italian features, sultry sleepy eyes, easy lopsided mischievous smirk, a sexy laid back drawl.] Best of all, he was nice to me. Actually talked to me. One of the few that did/was. 2) His last name is Rousseau. It will always stick in my mind because of the philosopher.
I send a friendly reply, inquiring what he's up to these days. What follows over the next five hours becomes a very personal exchange in which I discover things about him that I never would have suspected. Great things. Things that have me grinning from ear to ear. (Throughout the conversation, it slowly became more and more clear that he is interested in me.) He is a bit of an intellectual and always admired that trait in me. He is a free-thinker. He likes stuff that is outside the norm. He actively seeks it, in fact. He is a also a bit of a hermit. He uses a vernacular that makes it clear he is as dorky as I am. (He wants to learn web design.) He hangs out at my neighborhood bars and has always wanted to go to my favourite place. Again, I hear a Jessica Biel comparison. I don't see it and make an offhand remark about her “killer abs.” His response? He thinks it's unequivocally sexy that I am no longer that thin, because he likes voluptuous women. (Hold the phone! The hot, popular, soccer player that used to date cheerleaders likes big girls?! This is like something out of cheesy teen movie.)
Anyway, he said he's attracted to me physically, but that physical attraction only goes so far. He'd like to meet up for a beer and talk some more, see what happens.
I am incredibly flattered and surprised. Yay to handsome, smart men coming out of the woodwork lately. That doesn't mean I'll go though ;)
Edited: April 6th, 2007