I’m not sure whether to think of this crime as a fairly brilliant plan or a rather dumb idea: http://www.theindychannel.com/news/17005039/detail.html.

Basically, they stole a car, drove to a nearby gun store, ran it into the building several times in order to knock guns etc off the walls, crawled in through the hole they made, scooped up the merchandise, drove to a tire store nearby and ditched the stolen car for a friends truck.

This place is neglected. I know it. I hate it. (That fact, not this this place.) Everything that goes into maintaining it, is ultimately something I enjoy, though it may not always seem that way at the time. The proof is that when life/the real world are kicking my ass, I always come back here.

So much of my life is here… for me to reflect upon, share, purge, vent. I’ve documented my hopes, fears, ideas, triumphs and failures for so long, I can’t imagine ever abandoning it entirely. I’ve reinvented myself, changed my layouts, marketed myself in different niches, interacted, played with technology. It is trial and error, a cycle - and I’m on track again (right now). But, I know I am a planner, but not always an executer because other things capture my interest quickly and easily.

I’ve searched my soul for the best fit, best way, best scenario for my online life and my offline life to be in harmony. I don’t like to call it a business prospectus, but I suppose that it is in so many ways that it would be futile/silly to try to deny it. But,  just write, I vowed, take the kinds of photos I like, when I like and just BE.

I told myself to be less concerned with who was reading, what they shared, what they thought, who they pointed here, who laughed at me in the bars, posted crap about me on forums or whispered about me to their cliques, etc etc etc and how it could, would or should impact my presence/persona.

The admissions, the promises, they were easy to say. Putting them into practice was not. But, what seemed so overwhelming to even begin wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be. It was sustaining the associated attitude that was hardest. I gave up, or took a break. Either way, here I am. Again. Unsure whether I have renewed confidence or just less concern. Creating a new design. Incorporating new content and services, coming up with a new way to do things. And you get to be a spectator - as always :)

Photos from the downtown Indianapolis display can be seen here.

* Oooh! Aaah! *