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On and off, for over a month, I have had horrible stomach pain. Think of the worst heartburn, acid reflux or hunger pangs you’ve ever experienced and add to that the feeling of a small creature inside your stomach kicking you at varying intervals. Imagine feeling these feelings constantly for days at a stretch. I am keeping the makers of antacids in business, I tell ya!Sometimes it hurts so terribly I catch myself holding my breath, waiting for it to pass. Eating is a crapshoot providing either momentary relief or searing irritation. I can’t bend in any direction. I can’t sleep. And, worst of all, I can’t afford to go to a doctor. The low income clinics say I make a little bit too much for any of them to help me, but they look at my net income and do not account for any of my living expenses. That seems skewed and unfair when I’m left with thirty-five bucks a month for spending money.I have few choices. I have to self-medicate because I cannot function like this. I looked up some home remedies. The horrid concotion of fennel, ginger, cardamom, honey, black pepper and baking soda barely took the edge off and I nearly gagged on it. I delved deeper into researching. Apparently drinking some oils eases the pain. I couldn’t find a place that carried the first suggestion of Pine Nut Oil, so I used the alternative - olive oil. It wasn’t as thick and greasy going down as I expected. It didn’t taste so bad, but it had a bruning aftertaste that had nothing to do with my tummy. WHEW! I think it helped though. I had dinner, did some sleeping meds and crashed most of the night.It did not give me shits, thankfully. Woke up tender bellied, but no burning.I fear this is my infected teeth again. I’ve felt this before and it went away immediately after mouth surgery. Back then I tested negative for the ulcer causing bacteria, h pylori. With all the job stress I am under, I wonder if I am still negative. I guess I am now one of those people living with chronic pain. I understand why some consider suicide. When it is bad, it ism unbearable. So, if I am not around as much, not as talkative, not as friendly, not as focused. It isn’t you. it is my body in revolt.
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Friday night was cool and we had the windows open. I noticed a wafting scent like burning paper and figured a neighbor was lighting a grill or something. Nice evening for grilling, I thought. Then I heard sirens. I hear them frequently though on this fairly major road, so I didn’t think much of it. Then more. And more. And more. I got up to see where they were going… it sounded like they stopped very near.I got up to peek out the window and saw it- a cloud of smoke. Woah! I stepped outside and there were trucks, flashing lights, smoke and gawkers everywhere. A neighbor comes running over towards one of the firemen with a pipe, telling him it would help. HUH?! I squinted at them a moment until it hit me… the fire department couldn’t get the hydrant open. Oh shit! They waved the guy off and had already sent a truck further up the street to open another. My boyfriend comes toddling back from the direction of the melee. He has the scoop. House fire. Caused by a lamp. Not sure it is was knocked over or sparked or something. Everyone got out ok. Mother and her 2 kids. The fire department had to use a chain saw to cut an opening to fight through which to fight the blazes. Yikes!By this point, my eyes and nose were burning from the smoke and it was getting difficult to see through it. I was about to head back inside when Boyfriend sauntered over to a cop and mentioned that our neighbor burns 6 torches in his yard all night long, unattended. (It has been a source of stress/worry for a while… The guy claims it is his security system to keep people out of his yard and prevent them from stealing all the crap he leaves out all over the damn place, including propane tanks and various flammable debris.) We wondered if the officer would take a look on his way out, maybe have a word with him about how leaving flames unattended was dangerous. Perfect timing to hopefully get through to him after this house fire. I don’t know if the police looked into it or not, but I did notice that for the past 2 nights, no torches have been lit. Mission accomplished?
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I got a long overdue trim last night and my stylist decided he wanted to
relax my bangs so they will behave and style better [read: without so much
effort]. About ten years ago, I used to get all over relaxers regularly.
They smelled like rotten eggs. This one, by Mizani, was practically
scentless. Cool. And it worked - without frying. Now, I don’t absolutely
have to flat iron my bangs for them to look ok. We’ll probably do touch-ups
on the new growth every 4 weeks.
In October, for my birthday, I am getting colour [to cover my gray, ha]. We
use Wella International. We’re doing a level 2 - they call it dark brown,
but it is basically black (there’s no actual “black” in European colour
lines) along with a level 5 a brown shade called Heather. I know, I know,
that’s not much contrast, but extremely subtle is what I’m going for this
time. Though the color will grab slightly different on the previously
processed pieces, I wanted just a bit more dimension than black alone
provides. (Picture Eva Longoria’s hair when she first started Desperate
Housewives- a sultry raven without a helmet head appearance.) I tried
Chestnut as a highlight colour previously and it was just a wee bit lighter
than I had hoped.
Besides, this is just a small change to get me through the growing out
phase… I’m switching to a sideswept bang soon. At the moment they are long
enough part down the middle and clip them on either side. I’m not all that
fond of the look, but it will keep them out of my eyes when needed and keep
the hair from getting captured in the spring of my glasses- ouch. So, maybe
an inch/inch and a half more will do it; I don’t have to wait months. Don’t
worry, no fashion mullets for me :)
What I’d really like to do is go Red (yeah, again). I’m not too damaged, but
I’m gonna store that idea in the back of my mind until Xmas or so. By then,
I can transform the length I will have gained into a new cut along with my
beloved Kadus Irish Setter Red. I _might_ even get tempted to do a long
layered shag with loose waves like Jessica Simpson (yuck) had, but with a
fiery color. Sassy. That’s a good excuse to get some new makeup too.
Hee-eey! *snap*
Oh, I’ve also been using Schwartzkopf Bonacure shampoo/conditioner recently.
It really softens the hair without it getting greasy quickly. Smells ok -
not too clean, flowery or fruity. I’m also using a leave-in by L’anza which
helps enable me to get a brush all the way through my thick, coarse, porous
hair. Mmm and it is shiny again, thanks. It smells good enough to eat! Don’t
though, because, um, it tastes awful! :D
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